December 11 2020

Oh Joy! Lists a Skyhugs Tee On Her Gift Guide

One of the very first people I met in the blogging world was Joy Cho (or Oh Joy!). You could say that she inspire me to start My Modern Met. I remember a few years ago when we were at Alt Summit and we ran into each other. She was giving the Keynote speech. Her advice was to always hustle. She’s one of those rare people who has GRIT. She goes after those big name deals, she doesn’t just sit back and wait for them to come rolling in.

One year, just by chance, she met Ben Silbermann, CEO of Pinterest, when she shared a cab with him going from the Alt Summit conference to the airport. He told her about Pinterest and she loved the idea. (Mind you, this was WAY before it got BIG.) She became an integral part of their success. She now has over 14 million followers there. Whether she’s building a house or coming out with a new line of children’s books, the girl is always busy. It’s awe-inspiring.

Thanks for the shout-out in today’s blog post, Joy!

December 5 2020

200 Products are Now Available on Skyhugs!

So just to give you a little background. I’m open about how I have bipolar disorder, I don’t try to hide it. It’s a mental illness that’s both a blessing and a curse. I’ve been in hypomania for the last two weeks, my sleep has been on and off pretty terrible. I had three hours of sleep last night BUT I actually feel pretty energized. That’s because I finally crossed the 200 mark on Skyhugs! Now listed and live are 200 products, everything from framed prints and digital downloads to t-shirts and hoodies.

Something new that I’m incorporating are God related tees and prints. I wasn’t sure, at first, if I should bring in religion to the shop but I feel that, in my heart, God wants me to. So slowly you’ll see a scattering of God related items. One tee just sold, it was I am a child of God. I’m going to take that as a sign that people want to see God related items. The God stuff won’t dominate the site, however, there will just be some in there.

I started up an email newsletter dedicated just for Skyhugs so if you want to sign up, you can here. I imported the list form Skylar Yoo so if you were already on that list, you don’t have to do anything.

One of the cool things I want to do is make the email newsletter interactive. I’ll ask questions and if you answer back to me through email, I’ll randomly select a winner and give them free merch. So watch out for that!

Ok, that’s it for now! Time for a nap.

November 30 2020

My New Favorite Art Print

I created this art print yesterday and I’m pretty proud of it. It’s not complicated or ornate but it’s simple, to the point, and sweet. It’s a play on that popular phrase, “Be a Nice Human.” I admit, I have that tee, too. Going to get this as a t-shirt. It just feels right, especially in these divisive times.

November 26 2020

SkyhugsShop on Etsy: Just Crossed the 100 Products Mark!

Each time I start a new company, I go into laser-focus mode or what some call flow. Inevitably, this leads to burnout and going hypomanic which starts off GREAT and then fizzles into feeling like I’m trapped inside a dark prison. Over the course of about a week, I busted my ass, getting 100 products up on the new Skyhugs site on Etsy. Talk about a labor of love! I feel like I’ve just given birth (contractions and all…mamas, you get me). I’m talking 3-4 hours of sleep a night. Night night at 8:30p and wake up at 11:30p. WTF?!?!

What’s cool this time around is that not only are we repurposing some of our most popular designs from Skylar Yoo to be on more affordable base tees, which means a 50% drop in prices, I get to create some totally new t-shirt designs. Now, I’ve never thought of myself as creative but creating Skyhugs has made me say loud and proud, “I’m actually creative!” Even the boys have called me creative, which, of course, is one of the greatest compliments.

The 10 to 12 characters that will be coming to Skyhugs (three of which have already been released – Grace the Grateful Rainbow, Keith the Kindness Cloud, and Alice the Amazing Unicorn) have all been designed by me. Since my digital skills are lacking, I’ve been closely working with an illustrator from Spain named Ana to bring my crayon drawings to life in digital form. It’s been an exhilarating experience seeing them come out all cute and adorable.

So what’s next? Since I hit 100 products in 1 week, now I’m going to try to get to 150 products. I’m going to give myself plenty of time now, though, so I don’t burn myself out. I love that the most popular selling tee right now (sold and added to cart) is this retro looking/sweet one:

Till next time. Peace out!

November 13 2020

Skyhugs: The New Company I Just Launched on Etsy

Well, I’m back people! It’s been nine months since I’ve been on this thing and, man, has a lot transpired. We barely won the election, COVID, homeschooling, social distancing, no toilet paper…the list goes on and on. It seems all doom and gloom but guess what?! I think it’s the perfect time to come out with a positive company that was created to bring us all back together and unite as one.

After countless prayers, asking God what he wanted me to do with Skyhugs, he set me up with an artist and we finally cranked out our first character, Grace the Grateful Rainbow. She’s there to remind you of all of the good things that you’ve got going in your life. Here’s my short list:

1. Healthy family
2. Two amazingly sweet dogs who follow me all around the house
3. A finished Skyhugs character
4. Solid girlfriends – Kat, Grace Lee, Jay, Grace sis – I’m looking at you!
5. Chilly weather in CA
6. The Queen’s Gambit – was soooo good!
7. Biking with the boys
8. Benjamin Hardy’s free 30 day course – was transformational and informative
9. That I found a way back into this blog. I thought I had locked myself out, I used so many different types of usernames and passwords.
10. That I’m still alive and breathing

So the big news is that I finally got around to launching my new Etsy shop for Skyhugs. We only have 22 products listed, so far, but I plan on growing that number to 200 by year’s end. My goal is to gain some traction on Etsy and then create a separate Shopify site for Skyhugs so she has her own nice, warm home.

Instead of reading it here, you can check out this Instagram post where I describe what Skyhugs means to me. Can it really be the next Hello Kitty? More than anything, I want to spread love in this world. After the election, we saw just how divided our country really is. Biden should have blown Trump out of the water, instead it took us 5 days to get the news that Biden had won. (Thank you, Pennsylvania.) From election night, Tuesday, till Saturday, I was glued to CNN and MSNBC, watching anxiously but optimistically that we would pull out a win.

Can we just take a moment to acknowledge the fact that we will soon have a female 1/2 Black, 1/2 Asian VP?! Kamala Harris is a force to be reckoned with! I love watching her speak, she has such poise, confidence and grace. I’m so happy that young girls everywhere can see that glass ceilings can be shattered.

Signing off for now. I’ll try to be back more often. In the meantime, if you get a moment, check out Skyhugs on Etsy. Thanks!

February 3 2020

Faith (Not Fear) Will Make Me a Unicorn

Wow, it’s almost been a full year since I jumped on this blog. Truth be told, it’s not that I didn’t have the motivation to write anymore, I just didn’t know what to write about. I wanted to share stories with you, lessons even, but I was so consumed with making Skylar Yoo a success, I put writing on the backburner.

A lot has changed in the past year. I got this new life coach, her name is Amy Perkins, and she encouraged me to get outside my comfort zone and try making these videos on LinkedIn. Now, I don’t consider myself an expert at really anything. I love dabbling at this and that, I love starting up businesses, and in terms of hobby, I really love taking pictures (but mostly of my kids). So the question was: What the hell do I say in these videos?

Now, in the past few years, I’ve realized that there is some kind of force, for me that’s God but for you it may be the universe, that’s leading me somewhere, I just had to listen. I had to be still. Wasn’t it Steve Jobs who so famously said, “Creativity is just connecting things?”

One sunny day, on the way to meet an old friend for lunch, I was driving down the freeway when I looked up to see a digital billboard. There was no corporate logo. It just said this: “Live with Faith.” I thought, “Hey, that’s a simple concept but one I could easily adopt. I should trust in God that everything will work out in the end.” I searched my big ass purse for a pen and quickly scribbled the sentence on my notebook.

Well, I get to my destination, a Thai restaurant my friend and I are meeting up at, and as I’m exiting the car, I glance down at my notebook. To my shock, I had not written, “Live with Faith” rather I had written “Life with Fear.” I was flabbergasted. Who wrote that? Obviously me, but what did it mean? Well, I thought about it some and I realized that there’s really two ways to live.

You can either believe that the world is a cold, dark, ugly place where everyone is out to get you or you can believe that people are inherently good and that the earth is a friendly, happy place. I choose to believe the latter and that there’s a higher power at work. GOD. The more we open ourselves up to him, have faith, the more he shows himself to us.

Personally, I’ve been struggling to find a new purpose in life. For days, I’ve been asking him, “Please use me. Show me what I can do to make a difference in the world.” Then, I FUCKING HAD A DREAM!!! (Sorry for the f-word, God.) In the dream, I was with a girl from the Netflix show You, she was the badass landlord in season 2, and we were both wearing these glasses and looking at photos and art. When we’d put the glasses on, the scenes would magically turn into something completely different. It was like magic. The “You” girl turned to me and said, “How often do you see the scenes changing because for me it only happens once a day.” I turned to her and said, “It happens to me every time I look through the glasses. Every damn time.” THEN. I took the glasses off, and I didn’t need them anymore. I saw the world through different eyes. What many people see is literally what they see, like trees, mountains, and lakes, but to me the scene has a story, a meaning, a history, a SIGN.

I woke up and had this overwhelming feeling of love and happiness inside of me. A little voice inside of me said, “This was a message from God.” So I wracked my brain for days. DAYS! What did this all mean? I was reading a lot more so did it mean I would find knowledge and meaning in the world through educating myself? No, that didn’t feel right. So three days pass and I put the puzzle in the back of my mind. I jump on my Peloton bike for my daily workout when it hits me.

God made me bipolar for a reason. First, he wanted me to experience hypomania, mania, psychosis and depression so that I could deeply understand what those with a mental illnesses, particularly bipolar, are going through. Next, he wanted to show me that in hypomania, I could feel confident, creative and on top of the world. That means, it’s a possibility that I could feel that way all the time. The glasses symbolized to me “going manic.” You see, when I go manic I see signs everywhere. I feel like God is talking to me through EVERYTHING – like street signs, magazines, conversations. I also notice patterns everywhere, a lot of the time, they don’t make any sense but I’m hyper-aware of patterns.

For the past six months, I’ve been off my meds and I have been regulating myself through eating right, stressing out less, meditating, journaling, praying and exercising. I haven’t gone manic once. In fact, because I’m off my meds, I experienced some pretty high highs and some pretty shitty lows. Now, if you’re on meds, you may need them, so talk to your doctor. Please don’t just get off your meds because I did. I had been on meds for five fucking years and I was ready to try living without them.

So what happened between when I had the dream and when I could finally decipher it? Four important things.
1. I listened to Oprah’s SuperSoul podcast with the Rock and decided I could have a different and better relationship with my mother since she’s now a spirit. I can understand what my mother was going through, while she was alive, and forgive her for her shortcomings.
2. I boldly sent an email to a friend who’s going through depression to check in and see how he’s doing. Now, let me just tell you I have been shit scared of this person for decades.
3. I gave up vaping. Yes, like a sad high schooler, I was addicted to my grape vape. It was damn delicious and it calmed my nerves. However, being an all or nothing person, I became super addicted to it and had to puff every 10 minutes. I was a slave to it and it ruining my health and my self-esteem.
4. I created a vision board and on one of the index cards I wrote, “I am grateful that Gods shows me signs, visions and dreams.”

It was only after I did those things when I suddenly felt FREE. It was like I had all these thick layers between me and God and I couldn’t hear what he was telling me because my mind and heart were consumed by my anger and resentment towards my mother, my fear of feeling stupid in front people and my hardcore addiction to vaping.

Right after I interpreted my dream, I starting bawling on my bike. It hit me like a ton of bricks. Like someone has zapped lightening up my ass. If I put total FAITH in God AND work my ass off, anything is possible. He’ll lead me to my goal: Creating the next big unicorn.

(Art by Lisa Frank.)

“Understand: you are one of a kind. Your character traits are a kind of chemical mix that will never be repeated in history. There are ideas unique to you, a specific rhythm and perspective that are your strengths, not your weaknesses. You must not be afraid of your uniqueness and you must care less and less what people think of you.” – The 50th Law by 50 Cent

February 15 2019

The Best 1.5 Hours I’ve Ever Spent With My Husband

Last night, after the boys went to sleep, Sam and I started talking about the mental health podcast I’ve been wanting to create. This idea of starting one, which would be about successful people who have/had to deal with a mental illness, has been on my mind for months. I’ve been daunted by the task because of several reasons; having to learn the technical aspects of starting up a podcast, finding guests to interview, and the natural fear of being judged by my family and friends. I’ve always been open in sharing that I have bipolar, I’m not ashamed by it, in fact, I think it’s kind of cool. 🙂 Truth be told, I’m probably in a hypomanic stage right now, I only slept about three hours last night yet I’m full of energy and excitement about what the future holds.

I’m now in week 2 of my altMBA course yet I have to say that I’ve been changed. I’ve received so much helpful feedback from my fellow cohorts that it’s given me some clarity as to how I would structure the podcast. The first episode will be about sharing my personal story – starting from when I was young and having to deal with social anxiety to the present day, living with and managing being bipolar. When I look back at my life, now being almost 43-years-old, I can say that I’ve experienced social anxiety, PTSD, depression, and bipolar. Crazy, right?

The second episode would be hearing Sam’s side of the story about how I ended up in a mental hospital. He would talk about what life is like in a supporting role and how we somehow manage to live a life we love. (On a side note, that’s how I’d define success. It’s not about money or power, it’s about living a happy and fulfilling life.)

This got me thinking that I’d like to write a memoir, sharing my difficult life experiences and what lessons I’ve learned along the way. My hope would be that it would give others a glimpse into the life of someone who has dealt with several mental illnesses yet how a person can turn those experiences into something positive. If I can live through my mother’s suicide and being locked up in a mental hospital for six weeks, what can’t I overcome? I’ve learned how to be resilient, how to be the best mom I can be, and that having a mental illness doesn’t have to stop you from pursuing your dreams.

So back to last night. Sam and I were sitting on the couch when we decided to tape our conversation. We just started talking about my first psychotic break and how scary it was both for me and him. I told him what I last remembered, and he filled in all the details. At one point, I started to cry (ok, I cry easily), because I had no idea how much he did for me. Not only did he drive up every day from Temecula to the UCLA psych hospital to visit me (a 1.5 to 2 hr drive, one way), but he also checked in with the doctors, constantly asking for updates. I had family and friends who wanted to visit, so he created a schedule and gave everyone advice on what they should or should not say. He also had to deal with my loving but sometimes crazy sister who couldn’t understand what I was going through. In the hospital, she said, “Why can’t you just snap out of it?” Oh, if only I could.

It has now been five years since that hospital stay and I’ve gone into mania about once or twice a year. Depending on my level of stress, I can easily slip into hypomania, which my therapist correctly describes as “seductive.” In hypomania, you feel on top of the world, you hardly need any sleep, you feel more creative and less inhibited. But it’s a slippery slope, if I don’t increase my medication I fall off the cliff and my brain goes into overdrive. I start seeing patterns everywhere, ones that don’t make any sense, and I’m easily overstimulated. Even the sound of my boys raising their voices makes me extremely anxious so it’s hard to be present and be their mom.

I’m more motivated than ever to start this podcast. Inspired by Tim Ferriss, I’ll create six episodes and then see if this is something I really want to pursue. In the meantime, I’ll start jotting notes down about my life experiences and maybe they’ll end up in a book. One last thought we had was starting a YouTube channel where Sam and I discuss things like parenting, love, gratefulness, self-improvement and entrepreneurship. That one may be hidden for a while. Stay tuned…and thanks for taking this journey with me.

December 7 2018

Awesome Emperor Penguin Lamp

As a person who’s obsessed with lighting (see balloon lamp below), I knew I had to have this when I first spotted it on my favorite art blog, Colossal. (Shout out to Christopher Jobson for keeping Colossal so fresh and exciting.) I can’t wait to build this baby with my husband, name him, and then greet him every day and night.

December 7 2018

Beautiful Balloon Lamp Lights Up My Life

I spotted this beautiful balloon lamp on Instagram and I immediately knew I had to have it. Sammy assembled it a few nights ago and set it up in our living room. Let me just tell you, people, that this thing is even more beautiful in person. It gives off the perfect amount of light! It’s playful and perfect. (The pictures don’t do it justice.)

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